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Monday, April 28, 2008

An Unplanned Adventure

WARNING: long, detailed...

Sometimes life just stops. And everything that had been planned changes. Appendicitis is one of those sometimes. I had planned on a week-long trip to Baguio with Teresa and our friend Ate Sonia. We were coming up here to participate in a teaching "Counseling" and to be refreshed through relationships with friends.

We had an amazing time. Heard the teaching, and were blessed by it, encouraged by the speaker to step back into the Drop-In Center better equipped to handle the challenges we were facing. And blessed by friends who simply sat and listened to what we're going through and served us coffee.

I had purchased our bus tickets back to Manila for 1115pm on Friday. We would ride the bus overnite, arrive in Manila in the morning and then fly to Butuan, arriving there by Saturday afternoon. Friday evening I began to not feel so wonderful, but we pushed through and were able to attend the Children's Bible Study some of you may remember me talking about. By the end of the evening I was so miserable, we had to leave early. The taxi ride back to the YWAM base was interminable. I was totally unfit for travel. So Teresa and Ate Sonia left for Butuan, as I was curled up in a ball in bed, wondering what in the world was happening to me.

Saturday and Sunday found me still huddled up in bed, staring blankly at the walls, with a strange pain in my abdomen. Monday I dragged myself to see Doctora Faith (from now on Dra Faith), wondering if one of those nasty ovarian cysts had developed again. She ran a bunch of tests, and decided to treat me for a UTI, there was no cyst present. Encouraged, I dutifully took the antibiotics and drank what seemed like gallons of Gatorade, but had no appetite to eat actual food.

Tuesday I forced myself to get out of bed, determined to go to the travel agent to rebook a flight to Butuan. However, I found myself almost in tears in the taxi on the way, and amazed at the UTI pain. I dragged myself around the mall (where the travel agent is) and almost purchased the ticket, but my ATM card wouldn't let me get money. Dra Faith (LOVE her) saw me and greeted me, a look of concern on her face. She asked me how I was, and I said I was FINE, with a big smile on my face. And that's when I started bawling in the mall. (There's a first time for everything and this was just the beginning of firsts that week.) She ordered me not to buy a plane ticket and that I needed to come see her in her office that evening, she was concerned about my appendix. Meekly, I complied.

She wanted to send me to the hospital that nite for observation, but I didn't want to go. For some reason, I was concerned that people would think it was silly if there was really nothing wrong, so I suggested that we wait until the morning, just in case I was going to be amazingly better and the antibiotics for this UTI would have a miraculous effect. With strict instructions to go directly to hospital if anything got worse, I went home. (Poor Dra Faith, she was so concerned and I was so determined not to go to hospital...come on, let's face it...I'd never been in the hospital overnight...and I live in a third world country...and...)

Wednesday afternoon I was in a taxi on my way to Notre Dame Hospital, a private, well run, well equipped hospital staffed by nuns. Dra Faith had wisely emphasized that I would merely be spending a couple of days getting rehydrated, and making sure I was ok before she released me. Around 230 the surgeon came to examine me and immediately announced the he was scheduling me for an appendectomy at 530. (I thought I was just gonna have an I.V.!! Now they're doing this?!?! I did not sign up for SURGERY!!)

A few things about hospitals in the Philippines:

1. Each patient must have their own "watcher". In a regular hospital this person is responsible to pre-purchase all the medications for the patient, and to purchase the patient's food, sometimes outside the hospital where the food is cheaper. (As it turned out, the hospital I was charged the meds to my bill and food was part of the cost of staying there.) This person is also responsible to watch the patient at all times, taking care of what needs to be done for them, even through the nite. Ate Adeline was my watcher. She was amazing. At the end of the whole ordeal, I told her I didn't know if I could have done it without her. Amazing woman. Amazing testimony. Amazing love.

2. There are wards. At first I was put in a 6 bed ward, with curtains separating the spaces. Ate Adeline told me that in many hospitals there aren't curtains and that when her father was dying, he was in a 40 bed ward, where the watchers only had a wooden bench to sit on. People of all ages were crowded into that long hall. Very old, very young. Some very sick, others sitting in their beds, waiting. There were many visitors crowded in, trying to cheer up the patients. Loud. Bright lights.

3. The nurses still wear their cool hats, do charting by hand, in gray metal chart holders. The equipment made my mom smile in wonder, thinking she had gone back to the 50s. :) (Since I've never been in the hospital in the US, I didn't really notice alot of things, but my mom did.)

4. Patients are not allowed to leave the hospital until the bill is fully paid. If you don't have the money, you have to stay until you find it. When you pay, the billing department gives you a little slip that you have to give to the security guard on your way out the door. (Secretly I wonder what would have happened if I had tried to leave without the little paper...)

...back to the story....

So after making a deposit of 1000 pesos (US$25) to reserve the operating room, I was taken to the ward, where people were fascinated to see an Americana wheeled in and placed in a bed alongside them. An hour later they came in to take me for the surgery. They gave me an epidural (I guess that's what it would be called, numbing my lower half by an injection in my spine), followed by a sedative. (Thank the good Lord above for that sedative, I was not so very pleased with the feeling of the epidural.) After the surgery and a few hours in the recovery room (where i was covered up with a thick sheepskin blanket and a warming light was put on me, like a box of newborn chickens), I was taken to a private room (again, praise the LORD!!).

....(if you're getting tired of reading, I'm sorry... I know there are people who will want the details and others who just want the jist of it... Feel free to stop at any point :)....

Tom and SoonIm Hull were there with Adeline to greet me. (I guess I never mentioned that Duane and Lois, my leaders, were about 15 hours of travel away from Baguio, so they weren't able to be there.) For the next 8 hours I wasn't allowed to have a pillow, because of the spinal puncture I had to lay perfectly flat. I was in SO MUCH PAIN, it was virtually impossible to sleep. So I waited and waited for 4am, when I would finally be given a pillow. Hallelujah!! Around 6 the nurse came in and gave some pain medicine and something for nausea.

After a while I was completely anxious. My hands and feet were clammy, I was kicking and squirming under the covers, unable to find a comfortable spot. I was wringing my hands and pulling out the hair on my head. I told Adeline I felt like I was going crazy. (She told me later that she was really scared and didn't know what to do). I was clutching at whoever came near the bed, holding onto them, tugging at their clothes. Scary. Dra Faith came in and I explained what was happening. The nausea medicine should have been given over a period of 20 minutes, and since it had been given in about 5 minutes, Dra Faith said that it would cause the reaction I was having. WHAT A RELIEF!! Since there was now a reason and she told me how long the feeling would last, I was able to deal with the situation more logically. Although I was still having a VERY hard time for several more hours, I knew that it wouldn't be forever.

Unfortunately, what I didn't know was that the pain medicine had been stopped also. So by 2pm I was having another very uncomfortable episode, and I was (quite illogically, though understandably) scared of anything being put into the I.V. Finally they figured out what to give me, it look a while for them to figure it out, and then I agreed to the shot. Oh, I don't know what it was, but I still remember the relief flowing through my veins, calming me. After a while the nurse came in and asked if I was still in pain. My answer? "Yes, but I don't care anymore." I felt GOOOOOD.

A friend that was visiting reminded me that it would be better the next day. And it was. Friday they said I could go home. But I chose to wait until Saturday because I knew I would never make it up the three flights of stairs to the room I was supposed to be staying in at the YWAM base. Duane and Lois arrived back in town Friday nite and came to see me at the hospital. It was so good to see them. Lois agreed to make me her vegetable soup, which was the only thing that sounded good to me. (I hadn't eaten hardly anything since Tuesday.)

Saturday another friend came and drove me home in his car. Such a relief to not have to come in a taxi, not knowing what kind of driver or car we'd get. (At this point I'll just say that the pain medication they were giving me was equal to ibuprofen, but is normally prescribed in the states for arthritis....and they had given me the minimum dose. Not so very effective.) So the ride home was a challenge. But I thought I was holding up ok. Until we got out of the taxi and were walking towards the base. My chin started shaking and it was good Duane was standing there, cause I would have fallen over if he hadn't been. After crying on his shoulder for a while, we kept walking and we somehow made it up the stairs. I think alot of it had to do with the grace of God and the two strong men who almost carried me up the stairs.

So, that's the long story of my unplanned adventure...there was a big blessing that came out of it and that is that my mom got to come stay for 2 weeks, which was a huge blessing and needs to go into another post, so that you can get a break from reading the drama in my life. :)

Thanks again for your prayer during that time, and that I know are continuing even now. You are a blessing to me.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

THANK YOU

thanks to everyone who was praying during my adventure in the hospital...and for those who didn't know, i had an emergency appendectomy last wednesday nite...quite an adventure...not one i would recommend....more on that when i have more energy.:) love you guys.

ps. my last entry was an oops. i was teaching someone how easy it is to do a blog....and forgot to delete...:)

Friday, March 28, 2008

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Friday, March 21, 2008

She

She came in today, the first time in a while.
She didn't want to take a bath.
She hadn't slept since Monday.
She just wanted to sleep.
Please.
Sad eyes.
So dirty little girl.

She said there were so many men in her house.
She was scared to fall asleep cause they might come to her.
She was unprotected.
She said, "He hurt me."
Please.
Sad eyes.
So broken little girl.

She said, "He hurt me."
She ran, torn open.
She came to us and all we could do was hold her.
She slept for hours.
Please.
Sad eyes.
So desperate little girl.

She has little cuts all over her wrist.
She tries to drain the pain.
She needs hope.
She's thirteen.
Please.
Sad eyes.
So little girl.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Once again...

...I have no words to explain what my life is like. I find my thoughts jumbling through my head and rolling around, but they aren't really forming into sentences that I can speak, let alone communicate in writing. But that is no reason not to try. So here are a few thoughts.

we're at the beginning of our second week. in the first week we mostly were amazed at how much we didn't know that we didn't know. but now we are fully aware of how utterly dependent we are on GOD. we're open from 10-3 for the first month. we'll evaluate after one month and see if we need to adjust our times and length of being open. this is such an incredibly challenging ministry, we need to go slowly and build relationship with the kids.

the kids coming to the center:

30 kids, so far. only 5 are girls. age range 6-22 (we are aiming at a cut-off of 18 years old...we'll see what happens.:))

a 12 yr old girl and a 13 yr old girl, both prostitutes. one of them is cutting herself to let the pain leak out of her body instead of being trapped inside.

a 7 year old boy, covered literally head to toe in scabies. last Friday he showed up with a terrible dog bite on his ankle. he had been sleeping in the street and a dog broke away from the owner and charged the group of street kids. the others ran away, but this little boy was asleep and the dog bit through to the bone.

a 20 year old boy, addicted to sniffing glue, still acts like a 12 year old.

a 6 year old boy, some scabies, sleeps on the street is the one all the kids pick on all day. punching, kicking, slapping, standing on his neck. of course we prevent this happening in the center, but Teresa observed this kind of treatment the other day outside the mall.

a 16 year old girl, former prostitute, we're unclear on what she's doing now.

and that's only a few of them.

most of the boys have been the victim of sexual assault from men who pay with a bottle of coke, or maybe a meal. some of the men are foreigners. others are locals.

most of the boys are addicted to rugby, a glue...they carry small amounts around in plastic bags and cover their noses with the bag, inhaling the fumes and gaining relief of the persistent hunger and terror of life on the street.

almost all of the kids who have been coming to the center are members of the Bloods, a gang. their leader is one of the ones coming and he is so very respectful of us. it's incredible.

All of this is what I am seeing everyday. We're learning all day long everyday about what life is REALLY like here in Butuan. It's just not pretty.

Have you read Romans 8 recently?

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the LOVE OF GOD that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

How can it be that that verse fits in the same post as the list I have just shared? How can both things be true?? NOTHING can separate us from the love of God?? God loves those kids? The ones that as I type are sleeping on the street? Or being sexually assaulted? Or beat up? Or sniffing glue?? REALLY???

reaLLY???

really.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Day 4

Here's what Teresa had to say on Thursday nite:

What a mind-blowing, astounding first few days. I’m absolutely numb as I sit here and type. I’m still processing all the events of the past few days. My heart breaks for the despair and longing I see in their eyes. Today was the 4th day…we had 26 children today. They were so happy to take baths and wash their clothes. We had our first girls today, they are 13 and 14 years old. All the kids are just so adorable. They range from 5 to 20 years old. We have come to realize that all the children who are coming are part of the same gang. Today they were drawing pictures with their gang sign and Project Destiny together….so we are now one big family with the gang. So far they are really so respectful and thankful. We are focused this first month on just relationship with them and gaining their trust. We spend the morning with baths and washing clothes, then we eat and wash plates, then we play, draw, and sleep. The children come at 10:00 a.m. and leave at 3:00 p.m. Next month we will add in worship and Bible stories. For now they love being loved and hugged. Our staff is just the best. Today we had 2 staff and 2 staff in-training. We really need more staff...like tomorrow. We will start training next week. We will train at least 8 new people 4-7 p.m. We are continuing to have feeding outreaches to children still in the streets 4-5p.m. Today we canceled the outreach due to rain...it's been raining a full 30 hours!!! In fact when the kids arrived this morning they we soaked from head to foot and inside out.

Today was the first day that the kids washed their own clothes. They were so cute! One of the older boys was too funny...he brought a whole bag of torn up clothes to wash. We realized we really need to buy a washing machine to help out. We want the kids to learn responsibility by washing their own clothes but we want to help them out by spinning the clothes so that they will dry by the next day. When we took the clothes home tonight, we discovered that they were still so smelly and decided to re-wash them. The water was completely BLACK with dirt as the washer cleaned away. Now our house looks like a village of street children exploded all over our walls! Their clothes are hanging in almost every room with fans blowing to try to dry them. We're praying God's anointing will soak into those clothes as the dry here

Well, sorry for the ramblings today...here are a few things to pray for....(thanks)

Please pray for:

  • More staff
  • Wisdom and discernment for us all
  • That we all hear God’s voice moment by moment in all situations big and small
  • Safety, protection, and provision for the street kids
  • Teachable spirits for the kids
  • They really see and feel God’s love through us for them
  • Provision for our monthly budget for the center

Monday, February 25, 2008

Today we will buy...

  • 80 plates
  • 80 forks
  • 80 spoons
  • 1 GIANT rice pot
  • 1 GIANT wok
  • 60 towels
  • material to make 60 storage bags for kids' stuff (plate, fork, spoon, toothbrush, soap, washcloth)
  • material to make aprons for our staff

so that we can OPEN this Friday!!